Last day of our favorite smile...

I guess it's hard for me to explain to people why I'm not happier about Calder's surgery...in addition to being a nervous wreck...I am just sad that I'm losing that huge grin. I know my "cleft mommy" friends get it, but it's hard to even talk about it with other people. Meaning well, they always say things that shouldn't hurt, but do...You spend all this time loving your child more than you could ever imagine, exactly the way they are, and then all of the sudden they are different. It's not that I think I'll love him any less, I'm sure I will love him even more, but it makes me sad that he has to change. If only everyone else in the world would be as accepting...

I dread that he will look back at his baby pictures and dislike them, or be embarrassed...when all I want to do with them is blow them into huge reprints and plaster my walls with them!!! I guess it's all relative. This is one of those times I wish I had a crystal ball, so I could see how his life will be later...I can only hope that all of the difficulties I know he might face will make him a better and more empathetic person. I hope I can help that along too.

So, as random as this posting might be, it's my last day to love the heck out of this little man's smile, and to figure out how to let go a little bit too. I will be posting some post-op pictures, so that will probably be my next entry. I can't wait until I can post some pics of both smiles...

Love you little man!!

Sick of being sick!

I've been terribly sick, and willing it to just leave us alone isn't working! Little man has had a bit of the runny nose and cough, but today at the pediatrician, she gave the go ahead for surgery on the 17th! I can't believe that she said OK, but I am SO relieved!

That means I have exactly nine days to love the sweet smile I see everyday...which isn't enough time in my book, but we've taken lots of pictures...

14.4 pounds was the weight today, so he is still growing too! Ok for cereal with a spoon, and veggies and fruits too...he's gonna love that!

He is almost ready to sit on his own and getting up on all fours is the most recent feat! I know that one day, I'm going to look over and see him crawling and climbing all over everything!

Wanted to get a quick post on here, but I'm off to eat a late dinner and then to bed!

SICKNESS be gone!

My Love Bugs...Valentine's Day, 2010

Here are two of my favorites of Calder...when he is happy,
he is just the happiest little man around!

Caydree, on the other hand, will not always give the big, adorable smiles we know and love...
she still loves a good "dress up" though, thanks Grandma!

Baptism

So, we had Calder baptized on Superbowl Sunday, Feb. 7th, 2010. The service was at Murrieta United Methodist, and our good friend Pastor Doug performed the ceremony.

Our close friends Nicole and Russell, and Steve and Lori were there to support us and become the "co-" God-parents! We are so blessed to have wonderful friends and family in our lives!



Calder was able to wear the same outfit that my brother had worn for his baptism 28 years ago (holy smokes!), because my Mom is SO awesome and saves everything for us! It barely fit, as this little chunky monkey continues to pack on the pounds...but it looked so precious!! Thanks Allen, and Mom for lending it to us...it made the day extra special.

Here is our little man, all dressed up, looking so sweet!
It was a great day!

Still here...

So I didn't drop off the planet, just trying to figure out my internet...so here I sit, in the master closet, plugged directly into the wireless router...ARGHH. Oh well.

Calder's baptism was great, and I'm also trying to figure out why my computer won't accept the pictures from our printer, so once I get that worked out, I'll put them on here. He was adorable in his Uncle Allen's baptismal outfit...one more week and he would have burst the seams, he is getting CHUNKY!

I'm trying to relax on my 4 day weekend, and we celebrated Shane's birthday yesterday...he will tell you that it's great to be 32 again! LOL, he's funny, and having a hard time feeling a bit old.

So, I'm out of here...hard to get anything done while I'm sitting here in the closet! Pictures up later, I hope!

SURGERY Date!

So, the plastic surgeon's office called today with Calder's lip surgery date. It will be March 17, so we can tell him that the leprechauns brought him his new smile...

Nervous because he will be almost 6 months old, but relieved that we have a date to look forward to. 6 more weeks to enjoy our favorite smiles and big grins, and then we will have to get used to the new ones...which I'm sure we will love just as much.

We still go in on Sat. for his 4 month well-baby check up, so I will post new stats on here this weekend! Just thought I'd share our news of the big date!

Some New Pictures

This was our best attempt at a fun Christmas jammies picture...didn't really work out as well as we'd hoped!











Here is little man hanging out in the boppy, watching tv, I'm sure...












My FAVORITE pictures of this sweet boy are these big grins! I love how he just smiles with his whole face!















showing off my new and improved chunky legs, and...sitting with sister!